The Physiology of Phone Sex

「電話接通。

聲音進入耳朵之後，像緊貼著水槽聆聽，從水龍頭流出的水潺潺進入排水孔，激起相對的情緒反應。隨著音調起伏，經驗一次在吸入同時便極度希望能夠以嘆息吐出的呼吸。心臟上緣至背部之間的肌肉緊蹦，彷彿心臟後方有人用手指揪著它往左右拉動。一股熱流從胃部出發，先是向後，繼而往上，沿著脊椎向上攀緣，停在橫隔膜和肺臟下端，之後逐漸湧向乳房，在肺臟和心臟之間遊走、晃動、擺盪，隱隱約約有苦澀的感受，與其說是觸覺，更接近味覺。像淹死在一壺黑咖啡裡，彌留之於，胸腔裡卻全都是教人清醒的液體。血液逐漸向小腹以下集中，陰莖前端根部靠近陰囊的部位被拉緊，往下拉扯，在極為緊張的肌肉狀態中勃起，前端脹得發痛，彷彿全身的紅血球遭逢大敵，並且認為排尿孔是唯一能夠逃出的通道…」

The phone is connected. 

The voice enters the ears like the water goes from the tap, to the drain hole in the sink, and the emotions arise. As the tone of that voice floats, experiencing a breathe which would hope to excrete with sighs immediately after the inhalation. The edge of the heart tightens, to the muscles on the back; as if a man was holding and swinging them with his fingers, from the rear of the heart. A warm stream goes, from the stomach, starts backwards, continues towards the top along the spine, between the diaphragm and lungs. Afterwards, it flocks to the breast. The stream wanders, sways, swings, both ways, to the lungs and the heart. Bitterness. It’s more like a sense of taste, rather than tactility. It’s like drowning in a pot of coffee, the chest is filled with awakening liquid, in a coma. Gradually, the blood goes beneath the abdomen, the lower part of the dick is dragged tightly, downwards; erected in tension, and the front end of it hurts, as if all the red blood cells are escaping from their greatest enemies and the urethra is the only way to run…

… The amount of Catecholamines increases and the attention is enhanced. Feeling the temple, the eye socket swells, the blinking rate decreases and the heart rate fluctuates, like a pendulum moved continuously by tiny forces. The muscles of the inner side of the thighs pump, which makes the groins squeeze the scrotum. The legs have to be stretched for the unease, but immediately, feeling obligated to put them back together. A tension. And a relaxation. The position of the testicles changes, and this becomes another kind of unease. Oh… the erecting penis. The muscles at the root of the penis also feel stressed from the inside, downwards. There is a sign of hypothermia in the muscles from the wrist up to three fingers above the elbow. They begin to shiver, but the emotions change rapidly and continuously. The endocrine system causes serious shivers on the whole upper body. The right hand seems more stable because it is holding the phone, but the left palm has a feeling of grabbing something with fingers, especially the middle finger. The fingers have to be restrained by pushing down the plane. The varices on the left hand are like a splitting reptile or the growing roots of the trees. They also looked like a intertwining net of dust and plants in the dry mountains. Stretching, the muscles on the face, because of the laughter.  But feeling at the same time. There is a slight feeling of swelling in the throat, and a trifling sense of uproar, like after swallowing a moth. Feeling thirsty. The lips are drying. The talk continues, but the mouth cannot shut while listening to that voice. Got to lick the lower lip to keep it moist, and bite the upper lip with lips to stop it from going too deep into the throat. The pain relieves the irregular heartbeat motivated by adrenaline. Feeling the ache from the muscles on the right side of the back; but whether this is caused by bad posture or the fatigue of holding the phone for a long time, or whether there are other reasons for this, remains unknown. There is a feeling of soreness and ache in the knees, like the stream of blood is stifling when going through these veins. Calm down. Breathe harder. The air goes in and out the nasal cavity. The eye sockets sour, the part beneath the ankles feels cold, and it is eager for something warm. The voice from the phone intensifies the tiredness, however, the body is recovering, and the heart beat and the rate of breath are stabilising. It feels painful, the muscle that connect the instep and the sole, without reasons. The corpus cavernosum penis is loosened, and the scrotum feels no pain anymore. All the muscles are softened so they can now move again. There is something stuck around the nape. The liquid around the ribs scatters, and flows to the lower abdomen through the interbed of the esophagus and the belly.

Said good night. 

電話接通。

聲音進入耳朵之後，像緊貼著水槽聆聽，從水龍頭流出的水潺潺進入排水孔，激起相對的情緒反應。隨著音調起伏，經驗一次在吸入同時便極度希望能夠以嘆息吐出的呼吸。心臟上緣至背部之間的肌肉緊蹦，彷彿心臟後方有人用手指揪著它往左右拉動。一股熱流從胃部出發，先是向後，繼而往上，沿著脊椎向上攀緣，停在橫隔膜和肺臟下端，之後逐漸湧向乳房，在肺臟和心臟之間遊走、晃動、擺盪，隱隱約約有苦澀的感受，與其說是觸覺，更接近味覺。像淹死在一壺黑咖啡裡，彌留之於，胸腔裡卻全都是教人清醒的液體。血液逐漸向小腹以下集中，陰莖前端根部靠近陰囊的部位被拉緊，往下拉扯，在極為緊張的肌肉狀態中勃起，前端脹得發痛，彷彿全身的紅血球遭逢大敵，並且認為排尿孔是唯一能夠逃出的通道。腦內的兒茶酚胺化合物數量增加，注意力提升，太陽穴和眼窩有鼓起的錯覺，眨眼的次數減少，心跳頻率頻繁變動，像是不斷被微小力量影響的鐘擺。大腿內側肌肉有奇怪的抽蓄感，促使鼠蹊部往中央靠攏，壓迫陰囊。因為不適而將兩條腿推開，但又隨即有不由自主的向中央集中的慾望，一張一弛，睪丸的位置游移著，和鼓脹的陰莖互為兩種無法調和的不適。陰囊根部的肌肉也同樣有受力由內部往下牽引的感覺。從手腕至手肘上方三指處的肌肉有疑似失溫現象，開始顫抖，但情緒狀況持續變化，內分泌導致的興奮顫抖逐漸擴散，整個上半身都感到戰慄。右手或許因為持有電話而相對穩定，但左手手掌有希望以指關節抓握的感覺，以左手中指尤甚。必須要出力按壓平面，才能克制左手手指的彎曲。左手手背靜脈鼓起，像一條分裂著的爬蟲類動物，又像樹木根部鑽進泥土，又像是自飛機上俯瞰乾旱山區植被和黃土區塊交織纏繞。臉部肌肉由於頻繁地笑而有舒展開來的感覺，但又疲倦。喉頭有微微顫動的膨脹感，又有輕微騷動，像是吞了一隻蛾類昆蟲。覺得口渴。嘴唇有逐漸失去水份的錯覺，儘管始終在與人對話，但在聆聽時卻會不自覺地張開口，並且感到有必要以舌頭舔舐下唇，並以下排牙齒齧咬向內捲入的上唇。疼痛舒緩了由於腎上腺素而產生的心律不定。感覺到右側背部肌肉痠痛，並不清楚是由於坐姿不良，或是長時間握住手機帶來的疲勞，或是其他不明的因素。膝蓋有痠痛的感覺，彷彿血液流經此處時窒礙難行。情緒緩和，呼吸感變重，可以感覺到氣體進出鼻腔，眼窩痠痛，腳踝處以下發冷，極度渴求發熱的物體。話筒裡傳來的聲音加重疲倦感，但是，身體正因為心跳和呼吸回歸穩定而復原。腳背中央連結至腳底的肌肉原因不明地抽痛，海綿體逐漸鬆弛，陰囊不再受到擠壓，全身肌肉回歸可自由活動的柔軟狀態。後頸肌肉有明顯的不流暢感。在肋骨周圍流動的液體散去，緩慢地經由食道和腹部表皮下方流回小腹處。

說了晚安。